you told me so many times " I Love You"
you told me so many times " i want whats best for you"
you told me so many times " I'll never leave you"
you told me so many times " it's all going to work out"
you told me so many times " i want you"
you told me so many times " I understand you"
you told me so many times " I will fight for you"
how hard will you fight? i don't see you fighting, i see you standing back in the croud and watching from a distence, i see you not caring, i see you not understanding, i see you leaving me, i see you... and all your doing is standing aside, and watching my life unfold...
how do i know, whats truth and whats lies? how do you expect me to trust you after what you did to me? how do you expect me to ever be the same after the kinda pain you inflicted on me? what happened to " love" it kills me that i didn't even enter your mind when you were having sex with another woman! you have ANY IDEA how much pain that causes? do you have any idea, how you broke my trust with that one stupid idotic desiton? i thought you KNEW better! i thought you were a man! do you have any idea how that right there proves you don't love me?
ohh... so all the promises you made were lies? you didn't really mean them? you didn't really care from the beginning? im sorry, im confused, do you, or don't you actually love me? it pisses me off that you think i live in my own fantcy world, i'm been shaping up a LOT lately, i have muchured YEARS over what you did to me... but YOU? have you grown up? have you pushed her from your life?? have you done the " hard thing" like you've ben talling me to do? i don't think so! cuse you really want her, and you don't want me... oh wait, you don't want her, you want her body... what woman wants to be loved for her body..?! it makes her feel usless, and unloved in EVERY other way possible, like shes not good enough... doesn't that make you feel SICK?!
please help me understand, whats truth, and whats lies... cause i hate to question you anymore, i hate fighting with you, cause it's really stupid and exausifing. i really do love you, which is why im still here, which is why i still talk to you, which is why im NOT leaving you, which is why i have to talk about stuff with you, that i HATE talking about, i also hate knowing your being eaten up inside, and theirs NOTHEING i can do about it, cause you don't want my help, and you don't what anything to do with me... why do you have to hurt me so? all i've ever done, is love you more then anyone EVER has, gone byond what most have for you, taken alot of emotioal crap, and stress, and endured fights, and critizem, and defended you numioures times, and now you ask, " Abbie, i don't understand, after everything i've done to you, after the hurt, and the tears, why are you still here? why don't you just leave" " why are you still with me?"
it's because " I Love You" it's because, friends just don't abond there friends, friends don't turn there backs just cause they got in a big fight, no friends stick around, friends defend there friends, and love them no matter what... friends forgive over and over, friends love boyond what love can be... friends understand eachother, friends call there best friends when they need to cry, or fume, or yell, or laugh, because friends understand eachothers ways, why they do, what they do, friends know somethings wrong, before you say anything.. friends take phonecalls in the middle of the day, cause they know their friend needs to talk...yep...i love you..
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